Start with confession: I persistently and blatantly undermined the love of God and therefore what it takes to do damage to the enemy. Some truly terrible here and theres. Crucifying Jesus again and again, holding him up to contempt and doing myself harm (a N.T. description). Finally I’ve designed out what keeps these occasional . . .
A desperate but not unusual start is recounting once awake in those first moments; The 'Disciples' (better title than ‘Lord’s’) Prayer. Holding on, in a poor man’s frenzy, maybe eventually moving to other promises. Again and again the again, saying inside the same words. Locked in, all reliance. This always last only action . . .