In this me-me-me pursuit. Trying a new tactic. Tired about what pump out and feel the need to complete is quickish but laborious. Plus scamper about once up and correct typos etc. Think will bash bits and b's, when and what have you, over a day. A handful or less, short blocks. Go with this. And one of them sing-a-long church . . .
Hey, imaginary friend. Nah... won't see this, as that. To the heavens and fixed-on -- God:
Jonah ran. Gave up living. For others. Rescued/resurrected. Sent again, went. A cycle of change. Frustrates me, all and any, holidaying off. The rage to escape for a next few hours. Distract from... the call and going.
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Writing to myself is a strange compulsion. In itself, tells-me, much 'bout me. Wanting somehow to connect through and with God. Discover and meet again, like times before, better still go beyond. And not wobble about and all those rubbishy days. Now, a taunting wind-up. Blessed ignored.
More is less in Jesus name. . . .
Reading Global Research and reckoning the winds. A 'perfect storm' is one telling phrase and the convergence producing a bang. Need to see and hear, embrace and not shy-from; somehow motivate to pray.
Of course/this claimed a work of God. Yet slink and shrug about but know the buckle-down is today's win or . . .
Pride in our view of, and dealing with each other, comes from our stupidity about God. Assuming that is, we're believing on and making connections. Not making Jesus claims? No reason not to puff up. No basis except many do, in a kind of who-needs-God virtuous rebellion from a church without love.
Resilient arguments . . .
A Psalm asks "why so disturbed?" The solution and better perspective in this self-analysis is to trust. And how we can speak, come pray our way, out of the malaise and blues.
An option to run from, or to God, is the leading dynamic. Talk with and do what have to, in ever facing God -or- distract off, and -- yep . . .
Reaction against religiosity and the legalism that blights certain keen Christianity is necessary. 'Grace teaching' an imperative to stop over-energetic fussing. Less on the to do, and rather receive, free and easy.
Prefer to try and be in/to, both. Not legalism but don't see the bless-me emphasis in the best . . .