Don't seem to get it. Do but not full-on. Spits and spurts. Go a day. Go some days. Until one night, give m'self a holiday. Not-holy-day. Running the race then... slow down, to stop and sit, watch.
Only know one, what do, as/when. Go fast.
Because am not dead. This what's needed. What's asked-for. The offer.
Be dead in...
Keep rising self-up. Need a coupla-days or so, to proper fast from the net. Only allow six sites, a link-from... but again, it's still not enough.
And other slips and lacks. The need is to be dead. Seems most extreme but this Christianity for you. Why and what for?
Children. This world. The love of God. Boredom at ineptitude. Call it fitting and right. Read that's what it says. Beat the bully. Something about unknown heritage. Made for and know it. Leading and light. Gratitude. The cross and the lover. Follow.
Back in some days -- have something to write. See these posts as treading water not going anywhere much. Mild and minimal self-instruction. Need some power. Fire. Blood and fire.
More Better. Be dead, to get alive.